Nobody tells you this after graduating, but Adulting is Hard.
Yes, it is a verb.
ADULTING.
So, being in a new city, new job, and new experiences, it has been a whirlwind of learning.
I am learning to trust that Jesus is bigger, He is constant, He is with me, and He is comical.
All these things I knew, but I had to be reminded of it.
Two weeks ago, I felt the weight of the world.
This world is broken.
All around me I felt lonely, felt like I was failing at work, felt like God wasn't at work with me in the NICU (which He clearly is), and I felt all alone in this BIG world.
I have been attending a church, and I was invited to a worship service called "Elements" on a Wednesday night.
I was sitting there singing along, then all of a sudden I just stopped.
I couldn't sing another word.
I was frozen in my loneliness.
Physically surrounded by loving people, but felt the weight of the world on my shoulders.
So, I sat there. tearing up.
Then the last song of the night was beginning and I could not sit any longer.
I stood up and moved to the back.
I closed my eyes and just as I was about to start to pray.
A hand touched my back and my new friend Anna said, "Can I pray over you?"
All I could get out was a nod.
Jesus shows up.
He comes in a way that is absolutely beautiful.
I wept.
As the night ended, two other girls came up to me and asked how I was doing.
What a sweet answered prayer for community.
Jesus is Sovereign!
He is GOOD!
All of this to say...
My job at work is not easy. But I am not alone. I am not.
I have my Jesus, new sweet friendships, and a beautiful journey ahead of me.
I am thankful for my new church family, Mosaic. You are too good!
