Adulting is Hard.

Nobody tells you this after graduating, but Adulting is Hard.

Yes, it is a verb.

ADULTING.

So, being in a new city, new job, and new experiences, it has been a whirlwind of learning.

I am learning to trust that Jesus is bigger, He is constant, He is with me, and He is comical.

All these things I knew, but I had to be reminded of it.

Two weeks ago, I felt the weight of the world. 

This world is broken.

All around me I felt lonely, felt like I was failing at work, felt like God wasn't at work with me in the NICU (which He clearly is), and I felt all alone in this BIG world.

I have been attending a church, and I was invited to a worship service called "Elements" on a Wednesday night.

I was sitting there singing along, then all of a sudden I just stopped.

I couldn't sing another word.

I was frozen in my loneliness.

Physically surrounded by loving people, but felt the weight of the world on my shoulders.

So, I sat there. tearing up. 

Then the last song of the night was beginning and I could not sit any longer.

I stood up and moved to the back.

I closed my eyes and just as I was about to start to pray.

A hand touched my back and my new friend Anna said, "Can I pray over you?"

All I could get out was a nod.

Jesus shows up.

He comes in a way that is absolutely beautiful.

I wept.

As the night ended, two other girls came up to me and asked how I was doing.

What a sweet answered prayer for community.

Jesus is Sovereign!

He is GOOD!

All of this to say...

My job at work is not easy. But I am not alone. I am not.

I have my Jesus, new sweet friendships, and a beautiful journey ahead of me.

I am thankful for my new church family, Mosaic. You are too good!